||[Nov. 3rd, 2007|11:17 pm]
So this is another career/future/personal rant...
The basic gist is, "Do I want to stay in college?" I may have a chance at a research postgrad. Or I could spend some money on a Forensic Computing taught masters, which I really want to do. Or there's the option of going right into the workforce, which would probably involve (given that Sun probably aren't in a position to hire - and even if they could, probably not my old place) IBM (which is so far away), or some other places. One of the ones with a graduate stream is accepting applications to the middle of the month.
Now, the cool thing that they're trying to sell to us is that part of the training is in the USA. I feel unnaturally tempted by this one fact. The thing is that the eventual job would be in web-app development in a financial company. It's not exactly my first choice of work in the industry, developing j2ee web-apps. On the other side, there's the allure of going to the US. In the last few years, I've had this urge to want to go there for a while. Problem is, they don't say where in the US, I mean it could be in buttfuck, nowhere, which is exactly not where I want to go.
The problem is, I'm quite afraid I'd be doing a Rincewind, which I know is a bad idea. I've ranted about how pulling a Rincewind is a bad way. In case anyone doesn't get the Pratchett reference, this character, whenever he was running from any nasty chasing him, didn't care where he was running to but more what he was running from. I mean, I know what I'm running from, but the "to" is very nebulous. A fresh start? I've tried that before, twice, once just a mile away to Terenure, and once as far as England (in the other order). I don't think the distance will do anything. Hell, even if I have just one reason would it be enough? I mean, I'm also one against putting all my eggs in one basket - in both cases, the one reason failed, leaving me there.
The counter argument is that it's only for a finite amount of time, and that work is also something that has to be upheld, and despite everything, my work ethic is reasonable... I'm more likely to let myself down than let down my employer. Still, it amounts to one reason, and a very nebulous reason. Plus, I'm aware that the from never really stays where it's put. In school, our career guidance counsellor taught us a phrase, "Everywhere I go, I take myself with me... and that ruins everything." - in other words, if the "from is you, you're not going to leave it behind". I think past history has shown me that if it's not me, then it's something damned close to me.
Anyway, forgetting about all of the above, even if I did get the training and go to the other side of the Atlantic, it'd all be to train for a job that I don't really want to do. I'm sorry, but webapps don't seem like the most interesting thing to me. "Oh, another content management system? Just... give me a second to... finish the job and I'll be right with you." You're more likely to see a boxer dog construct a habitable skyscaper from pig bones than witness me say that.
Yet, the compulsion to apply is still there. Hey, if nothing else, it's good interview experience.